The german word for “a face badly in need of a fist.”
I’m not joking. This is an actual word that people use. Kind of like defenestration (throwing someone/something out of a window). There’s even a wikipedia page on that one!
… I need to go back to work.
Man, those Germans! I love that language!
Totally just texted my friend who moved here from Germany to ask her about this.
I am so happy now.
Curious how often this happens.
Oh my god story of my fucking life.
too many times, too many ways.
And when you keep saying no they get pissy
I had a grown man grab me when I was fourteen after trying aggressively to grope-dance with me. When I twisted out of his grip and shoved him, his protest was, “What’s wrong with you?”
all of them
all of them
My sexually abusive ex-boyfriend used to say to me all the time, “What’s the point of you then?” when I would say no to having sex with him.
Sometimes he’d hug me and tell me I was his favorite. When I’d say no, he’d huff and puff and throw a fit like I just set all of his Pokemon cards on fire.
He’d even do the “Please, just for me?” Puppy-dog eye spiel on me from time to time. “Now, now…” when I said no, but he’d push my head toward his crotch.
He was a bastard.
Casually, sincerely, sweetly, angrily, and everything in between.
I can count on one hand the men who have listened when I’ve sad “no.”
More than once.
And fyi, “If I actually wanted to rape you, I could have” is not a fucking comforting statement.
What me being sexually submissive means:
What me being sexually submissive does NOT mean:
Tuesdays and Thursdays are group personal training with four other girls.
Wednesdays are one-on-one personal training with Leia.
Then the rest of the week I choose between home workouts and classes.
Went to my first Zumba class last night too! Alone!
I’m not going to go into details. I’ve learned the hard way about being honest with people.
But the past two weeks in a row I’ve ended up in two separate situations in which a man essentially forced me into doing things I didn’t want to. I tried to talk to my ex-boyfriend about it because he’d said he still wanted to be friends and he was my main pillar for a year and a half, so I thought maybe he would be on my side and listen. No such luck - I got the response “You sure have interesting boyfriends” and then he told me to go talk to someone else.
This is why I haven’t really been updating. I’ve kind of been in “recovery mode.” I haven’t been eating badly, but I’ve mostly been focused on feeling better.
This is actually how I flirt.
I’ve still been taking my photos but this weekend was… extreme. I’ll catch up when I’m fully recovered.
So I intended to update this nightly, but ended up with a really wonderful surprise last night. There’s this guy I’ve really liked and been kind of half-pursuing something with since Justin broke up with me. We hadn’t been able to do anything for about two months - and last night I finally got to go over and spend the night with him! Definitely worth procrastinating for.
This will be a fairly impersonal update - super-tired, still in the afterglow, and ready for some real sleep.